20.06.10
If you have to try so hard to be good, isn’t that further proof that you’re bad? If goodness doesn’t flow naturally from you then really you’re just a bad person that wants to be good and a desire to be better doesn’t in fact make you good.
I just took the most amazing shower. It feels like I know what I need to do now. It’s gonna suck but sometimes shit has to suck before it rocks.
And now, even strangers on the internet don’t make me feel good about myself anymore..
I just need someone to say, “Hey, I know it feels like you’re failing at literally everything in your life, but you’re doing your best! Great job!” Because telling that to myself repeatedly isn’t working anymore and I want to give up a little bit. k, thanks.
Will I be sad forever?